army of zombies

Sunday, August 29, 2004

dear diary i am back from a holiday at home i always go home for the weekend but last time i had to take the train and i met a beautiful tongan girl who was sitting opposite from me her name is naomi and she works for the queensland government in the advertising department promoting explosives she is drop dead gorgeous she is simply irresistible and we are going on a date next week yay i dont have to be desperate and dateless no more naomi is the most beautiful girl in the world she was wearing pink lipstick last time i saw her and a grey jacket with lots of buttons which her mum bought her cause her mum is a cook and her dad is an architect who designs plans to fix up boats she had her mum buy it for her in america she is going to melbourne in four weeks time she is the girl of my dreams maybe i will come to visit her at coolum beach if she wants me to come and visit her i hope so i will have to find out her home number cause i called her at work but she was too busy to talk but it was just so good to hear her voice she has long sexy legs and black hair and beautiful eyes she is my polynesian princess naomi i love you god bless love daniel :0 ) smile jesus loves you naomi believes in jesus she likes bob dylan and bob marley and she goes to church every week cause she is a good christian girl we talked about religion and politics and she told me about her hobbies and interests she works every day of the week but not on the weekends so maybe we can hang out together on the weekend i love naomi so much she is wonderful she is beautiful she is simply the best i hope that she loves me back naomi is my sweet heart mum says i should just be friends but if she wants to be my girlfriend then everything is wonderful now and im a fool for love i love naomi im so glad i took the train cause i met this beautiful girl of my dreams naomi shes my sugar bomb god bless you naomi i love you my tongan queen of hearts much love from daniel to you sweet heart i went shopping today i got tracey champman three for the price of one a fathers day card for dad a mug to replace the mug i smashed filled with lollies kevin bought me a solo what else did i buy let me think ok so i got music and a fathers day card and three caramellos intended for leah and john and me cause they went to the shops with me and they looked around for me but i went back cause i couldnt find them and we didnt arrange a place to meet so i gave the carmallo koalas to tobias and this kid who was the daughter of this lady who was using the phone and she borrowed a pen off me to write a number down im so glad that naomi is my girlfriend or at least that she wants to go out with me mum says i should just be friends and take things nice and slow i should not get carried away but i think im head over heels in love admittedly this time is not the first time i have felt this way but this time its for real and nothing anybody can say will change my mind maybe naomi and me can hang out on the beach together shes a beach girl even though shes a city girl she lives at the beach and works in the city and shes going to melbourne so i hope she will let me come and visit her cause i want to see her again im going to call her at home soon as she gives me her home phone number cause i want to talk to her for as long as she wants to talk to me like five or ten minutes i want to know her better i want to know her hobbies and interests naomi is the girl of my dreams and the lady of my life when i see her again im going to give her lots of hugs and kisses if she will permit me to do so im not going to push my luck if she kisses on the first date then its not a moment too late i hope that she is the one i hope that now i can call off the search for the girl of my dreams im so glad i took the train cause i met a beautiful girl when i did and im going to see her on saturday and come home on sunday to help dad celebrate fathers day i went home on the weekend i hung out a little bit with my friends but they were gone as soon as church was over i skulled a pasito at the train station and got some billabong bills for the kids for lina and one of the twins everybody outside is working hard while im inside slacking off i got lots of emails from my friends i hope naomi reads my email and sends me a reply cause she is sweet like candy and her words are sweet honey from the rock she is so beautiful she takes my breath away maybe we are made for each other i love you naomi god bless love daniel :) smile jesus loves you i wish i was talking to her right now but i left my pad on my bed so ill email her after dinner and check to see if she has replied to my email ah love isnt it the most beautiful thing
¶ 11:54 PM

Monday, August 23, 2004

i dont know what happened to my other blog it seems like it didnt work today so i hope that it works out this time today we did money matters it was fun there was lots of staff there to enjoy t he lessons we learned about how to spend our money and make wise investment decisions we had chocolate and coffee that was the best part i like making new friends it is always a fun experience today i was sweeping the courtyard i have been on the computers for a long time i waste a lot of time on the computers last night i was reading magazines and listening to bob marley and bic runga and eric b and rakim and a little bit of frank sinatra while people in the background were playing multiple games of ping pong now i am the only one in the computer room i hope my blog has not been lost in the pool of eternity that would be a terrible waste god bless love daniel smile jesus loves you keep on shining for jesus i love my girlfriend tigist
¶ 10:57 PM

dear diary here i am back again my brain is switched on i feel like im a loser for wasting my money but thats ok im slowly learning how to budget yesterday i got a bunch of tapes and books and a tigger for emily from full circle clothing and filmink magazine from the newsagent which was going through some renovations i wish i could stop spending money like there was no tomorrow i wish my girlfriend tigist lived in australia instead of ethiopia maybe ill move to africa next year if i save up enough money but im no good at saving money maybe if i make some investments i can gain interest and get back to africa faster than if i just save my cash in a hole in the wall or i could just invest in a piggy bank which is within my budget at the moment dad dropped off a brand new book case for noah mum and dad are so generous to bless my ex school leader like that i wish i could do basic leadership studies i have to wait until new schools become available so i can be a leader next year im going to do mission building for six months then im going to new zealand for two weeks and hopefully when i come back there should be some leadership positions available i have been here for two weeks now but i was coming here for four weeks on the train before that i was sweeping the courtyard today thats all i did apart from this faith in finances thing which was on monday tuesday and wednesday only this time they called it money matters garys lecture was the best cause he gave us chocolate and coffee but mark ng and susan ng had some cool things to say about being generous and how you dont have to relate faith back to money all the time cause it applies to other things as well john and joshua were busy painting the neiblings house so they didnt have to do the course plus they have probably done it before anyway i miss tigist one day im going back to africa one day im going to see her again ive got to ask my disco peeps to send me photos so i can stay up to date with her even if they are old photos its still better than nothing peace out god bless love daniel aka zombiefleshthemoonfaceone :) smile jesus loves you hugs and kisses shout out to my girlfriend tigist who is faithful and devoted to me even if im not i know i suck but i want to get better im going to send my girlfriend plenty of love letters to make up for my shortcomings as a boyfriend one day im going back to africa that is my goal that is what im saving up for so ive got to pray that god will provide the money so i can see my girlfriend again cause she is the most beautiful girl in the world she is my honey she is a goddess she is drop dead gorgeous and plus she gives me encouragement which lifts my downtrodden spirit its like walking on sunshine i love my girlfriend tigist she rocks my world in a perfect world i would be married with children and tigist and me would give birth to beautiful black and white babies if only dreams come true then i would be reunited with the girl of my dreams and no longer singing the blues cause i would be in the arms of love of my brown sugar sweet heart tigist is my queen of hearts my princess bride i wish she was here right now ill be waiting for my girlfriend til the cows come home love sure is weird and wonderful but it all works out in the end she is my lover and friend until the end of time im going to bust rhymes for my homegirl tigist things are going to get better when i met her it was love at first sight and we were singing and dancing all night playing the house game where you draw lots of dots and make lines across them to make houses and i was letting her win and we were sitting in the corner and i was telling her how id always wanted to meet an african girl and how she was the most beautiful girl in the world and she was my brown sugar and telling her that i love her and asking her if she would be my girlfriend those were some good times she is my pretty young thing she is a wild thing she makes my heart sing in the corner of the shed between the toilets and the kitchen we were hugging goodbye but she said no kissing but i hope that when we meet again that she will let me kiss her and i sure want to hug her too cause i really miss her she is my baby my foxy lady my brown sugar sweet heart no more shall we part even though its hard to deal with every day that doesnt mean that im going to give up hope even though its difficult for me to explain the way i feel cause words cant express how much i love her and i miss her and i wish she was here then i wouldnt be so lonely and i wouldnt be chasing tail cause im waiting for letters from her and photos in the mail from my girlfriend who is my black beauty my mahogany brown super cool sweet heart she is the girl of my dreams i pray god will make it possible for my girlfriend tigist to come to australia tigist i love you i miss you i wish you were here you are my beautiful girlfriend and i love you very much i can look but i cant touch god bless love daniel :0) smile jesus loves you word up to my army of zombies keep on being jesus freaks even if its risky business the eternal rewards are worth it
¶ 10:13 PM

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

if i ever want to change my ways and heal emotionally i have got to stop walking the dog and spanking the monkey i love tigist she is my gorgeous girlfriend i want to be faithful and devoted to her for the rest of my days i wish i was not constantly tempted i should stop buying hip hop magazines cause they are more about the porn than the music these days its a sick sad world that we live in i feel like im drowning in sin i want to change my evil ways dear god im sorry that i have let you down time and again yet still by your grace and mercy you keep on forgiving me jesus thankyou for dying on the cross for my sins i dont want your death to be for nothing im sorry for my evil ways please forgive me holler back at me i believe in you amen one day we are all going to die i want to go to heaven i dont want to burn and fry familiarity breeds contempt but absence makes the heart grow fonder i wish i had photos of my girlfriend so then my thoughts wouldnt stray towards other temptations cause im a dirty dog and i need the light and i need shades cause the light is too bright and it hurts my eyes i dont know what drugs im on im so tired today i could out sleep rip van winkle ive been getting to bed too late last night we were all grooving to barry white the love walrus gospel gangstas and john rueben all the old school christian hip hop im looking forward to dichotomy b coming out in november from grits see www.grits.com or www.goateerecords.com for the link up i dont know what im going to do today probably just water the garden wash and vacuum the trucks sweep the courtyard all the usual stuff i feel so numb inside like im just faking christianity but i want to be more real with god and stop being such a loser cause god sees behind my mask what i am is not what i am pretending to be most of the time i feel like im a slave to sin no matter how much i play the game i just cant win much love to my peeps cause im in too deep i try counting sheep but i still get no sleep today im going to be rapping but id better get right with god first or its not going to work out so im making my own version of the sinners prayer with a kiwi funk break beat for motivation and gods love for inspiration god dispenses so much grace to us all this totally unmerited favour i dont deserve i love you jesus im sorry for my sins i know sometimes im dillante but i want to be devoted to you not a fair weather friend or a sunday christian i thought that it would be easy to be pure when im not living at home but its just as difficult cause im still influenced by the media but i should blame it on the dcvil cause there is good media and bad media i sound like a conspiracy theorist the drugs dont work they just make me worse nothing can quench my thirst things have gone from bad to worse but still i praise the lord til im a bag of bones god bless love daniel :) smile jesus loves you say it like you mean it word up to all my homies on mad and disco blood is thicker than water peace out god bless get real with god praise and worship the king of kings make time to spend with the one who poured out his blood so that we could be set free from soul slavery i dont want to take god for granted no more i dont want to take my girlfriend for granted no more this is my priorities first comes god then my girlfriend then my family i love you tigist thanks for not giving up on me ill be coming soon baby you will always be my foxy lady hey brown sugar you are my princess bride ive got a ticket to ride on the other side jesus be my guide we will be walking in the light cant hardly wait til i see the face of my pretty lady shes hotter than a fire place bleeding is believing in the loving that im needing you are feeding me with good ideas well be together forever even after all these years playing reindeer games getting clipped behind the ears going up in flames cast away my fame and fortune cause im over the moon for my girl im going looney tunes without you cant stop thinking about you so much to tell you when i see you again talk about the future pleasure and pain wander round the world come back again you will be right as rain jesus died and rose again in this life we make a deep impact mark or stain we come from dna strain tigist is my girl shes the main event i ask god forgiveness i repent god bless get some anger management zombie flesh the moon face one sleeping in a tent even when im twisted and bent i praise the lord for my gorgeous girlfriend if it aint broke dont fix it im on the mend i cant play pretend when im sick and tired so drowsy and uninspired i need a girl like a cookie needs dough im twenty one on death row go with the flow tell you everything you need to know read between the lines learn the slang bang bullets like wu tang clan you make me want to be a better man army of zombies the living dead veterans im a homesick alien singing the blues all i need in this life of sin is me and my girlfriend singing i love you to my baby boo cause she knows exactly whast im going through hugs and kisses tigist i love you and ive got mad love and respect for any dog or cat who reads this too for my homies this is for your eyes only keep your eyes on jesus and dont listen to the phonies feels like a last scream to the sky wake me up from my dreams pigs might fly i feel like im just wasting time like a swamp monster coughing up slime bring it back to the old school be a love fool jesus christ is super cool
¶ 3:19 PM

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

one day im going to make this interesting by adding photos and poems and lots of cool stuff but for now i will just be myself today it is raining and pouring the old man is snoring bumped his head on the end of the bed and he couldnt get up in the morning seriously its raining cats and dogs pouring down buckets on our heads i dont think the garden will need watering today im going to talk to my parents today cause its a bare neccessity so i can help my friend mary liew get to australia she is coming to see me before she goes down to new south wales of course she is coming to see lots of other people too cause her school starts in september and she is doing an s o e for y w a m its all good leaves are falling from the trees but i wouldnt touch them with a ten foot pole until all this rain clears up looks like somebody else needs to use the computer so id better get off as soon as possible live long and prosper all you funky chickens cant think of anything relevant to say today i will ask gary what to do about the vans and updating the log books im supposed to have them all washed and vacuumed and up to date in two weeks im looking forward to seeing mary liew again she is my best friend until the end of time she comes from malaysia she likes singing and dancing and talking to people about jesus she is a godly girl she has a servants heart i love her and i miss her and shes coming back in a couple of weeks boo yah that sure is good news it is always good to have friends in other countries in the spirit of multicultural harmony i wish she was here right here right now its raining down buckets i had an egg for breakfast i like to put salt on my eggs maybe i will see man on fire with my parents on the weekend im staying on base next week cause there is a haungi at island breeze and im going to help set up its going to be a good weekend god bless love daniel :) smile jesus loves you from zombiefleshthemoonfaceone live long and prosper dont do anything i wouldnt do if time and money is no object
¶ 3:01 PM

Friday, August 13, 2004

in the middle of the night birds take flight check out the high lights this is the story of my life too much trouble and strife rolling the dice naughty but nice i dont live twice coming back to life got to realise what i lost what i gained when i strained on my rip coard break my surf board keep on surfing the waves of the internet slaves from the cradle to the grave i pray there is another way to say all the things on my mind stop me from going blind feels like wasting time will i ever be anything but an enigma just a figment of my pigment the legal fiction of my jurisdiction i dont live in the hood but you know its all good middle class leaves of grass suburbia i hate it but i love to abuse it milk it til my udders get sore milk that cash cow a little more here and now just exploit my pain and misery is more painful and miserable than yours ignore the rules and regulations once more action hero like wesley snipes follow the pan pipes to the gates of dawn and wipe me off your windscreen the heroes and villains scream im invading your dreams my girl went away for the weekend shes coming back again same as me right as rain fine as can be look at me what do we do with our time please let me dance even though i dont stand a chance butterfingers and two left feet but maybe you would respect me if you only let me join in the fun just for once happiness is a warm gun blasting off in my mouth representing for the dirty south suicidal thoughts and fool proof intentions bullet proof vest like fifty cent jesus christ is simply the best i repent angels from heaven my girlfriend was heavensent just when i thought i could never vent get some anger management follow the ten commandments im out of practice need a legal lawsuit with the ties and buttons pull the cotton out of my ears on the coat hook shifting gears changing rooms figures of gloom and doom speculating on the future triplicating the multiple volumes decimating your ear holes with the sound of the underground fox and the hound praise the lord cause i never get bored and restless rocking the suburbs like an orange peel less and zest less did you guess this cross me off your guest list write me off as a has been never been wannabee climbing up the walls barking up the wrong tree dont you want to bark at the moon with me hope to see you soon cause im going looney tunes put my money where my mouth is if i love you then i will give you money honey im home right back again like that garden gnome mysteriously appearing and reappearing so curiously my cat got killed by curiosity no blood got spilled im a thugged out villain chilling in the suburbs no blood spilling god willing im going to last another couple of years before you forget about me keep rapping til im thirty or forty whatever the climate is of your private allegations and secret confessions im making them known to the general public cause im in the public eye now caught out like a spy with my pants down around my ankles wallet chains and yanking pains the remains of the day what i got to say no more delay on this track just speak it just spit it doesnt matter if it rhymes if its political or religious or whatever just get it together got to rhyme in time like whips chains and leather sedate me create me out of nothing god breathes life into this dust in god we trust rising up out of the ground spectres haunting the old school sound like back in the day what i got to say sick and tired of wasting my time away this is the way it used to be if you dont see me dont know what you missing out on homie so come to the show even if you want to heckle i got more mood swings than hyde and jeckel some of my chickens black and white some of them are speckled but all of them get the bite pierce at the neckle know what im lacing my tracks with cyanide like jack and jill went up the hill wearing backpacks never coming back my patience wearing thin im tearing tins open with my fingers once you pop you cant stop like a packet of pringles stuck somewhere tween engaged and single never happened yet send her a ring in the mail give her a ring on the telephone lock me up in jail i forgot to post bail but daily i post blogs put on my togs be hopping up and down like frogs on logs stuck in a bog stuck in the muck give me a nip and tuck when im down on my luck for what its worth keep on spawning im fawning just pawning my goods and services clipping the lawning now im a swamp thing pumping that old school sound what i got to do to keep it underground in my cage i rattle cats want to battle spaced out like the needle im grungy like seattle im grimey like dizzy rascal i keep it real with the fever for the flavour of the month party favours soul saved by jesus christ the lord and saviour of my life check my behavior got to change before i go from weird to strange and back again dont know what to call it call it garage funk cause im spitting mad junk like an elephant trunk too much excess baggage from feelings and emotions drifting out to sea like rivers and oceans all the hype money can buy tear a hole in my face double it and call it eyes well word to the wise and what do you know if you plant a seed then its gonna grow im a coward political like howard i get overpowered mowed down by the opposition plowed hard into the ground run over by army tanks the slime i drank from the muddy banks of the wishkah to the bris vegas fish bar bowl me over baby come over and we can work this out if you know what im talking about there are so many things i would rather live without i was born twenty years ago from the uk to the oz to the usa back again with the blazing tracks so amazing keep on grazing in my fridge ill be crying my heart out under the bridge check out the beanie with the green yellow and red ethiopian colours like my dream girl keeps me fed with love and affection fiending like monsters under the bed she gives me hugs and kisses shes my pretty little missus and i never disrespect cause she be picture perfect even if you think my motives are suspect brain dead walking and talking capturing every moment of this brain drain atonement to justify the living sacrifice i must make to deify the trinity you dignify divinity so test my so called proximity define your femininity or masculinity choose sides lose hides so kick me im just a brick in the wall cant you see poppa says worse things happen at sea momma says im living in a pig sty but thats just me and a messy room is easy to fix but harder to solve is my problems with chicks cause i cant make them love me and money causes more problems ever so often the rhymes i be dropping living in a motel we keep it popping infested with roaches and rats sometimes im tested and tempted but still we overcome even when bested by interest thats vested you want something from me i will give it to you trying to get myself arrested breaking all the rules and shaking all the fools up from their slumber im sawing the lumber im mowing down the opposition going places with youth with a mission fulfilling dreams and visions jesus christ save our souls gospel messagers of great commission quit acting a fool watching television take a break for intermission tell anyone who is willing to listen praise the lord boogie woogie til i glisten check the crucifix some peeps be hissing and dissing cause they got demons in them coughing up phlegm grow a flower from a stem the rose that grew from concrete keep it discrete if i die press repeat bring me back to life and move your feet cause i exist through my rhymes i resist wasting time cause i know im not going to be on this planet for very long all about the birds and the bees im not very strong in fact im weak but its god that i seek twisting and turning all the days of the week now im living on base im all up in your face and im giving you kisses and hugs my embrace know how to make an entrance and a departure check the aperture tripod on your camera ready to capture the moment that you just witnessed the lyrical fitness spill my blood chew the fat live off my blubbery flesh try a little tenderness jesus christ is god made flesh so long god bless we be living in a world of wickedness but soon the badness will be replaced with godness so we faced the mercy seat begging for intervention with fear and trembling working out my salvation cause im not sure of anything anymore swan song my last time to roar i ignore the rules i avoid the tools who make me out to be a fool make it up as i go along as i flow along like the waves in your swimming pool think im drowning in a sea of fools got to keep my cool dont get sucked up into that whirlpool swim against the tide see you on the other side jesus christ is king of kings got a ticket to ride jesus christ is lord of lords use the bible as my sword wear the full armor of god doing spiritual warfare i got a critical spirit metaphysical being manifest eyes seeing what the physical realm dont reveal justify the third eye blind with rage judgement clouded by anger locked up in a cage like a bird behind bars in jail bait for the ale going at a snails pace just a member of the human race we all chase time face time for the crime of staying alive jump to the jive see how long you can survive if put to the test cardiac arrest is simply the best what i did today ate my pbj made for me by philly chilly with the fine fillies lets get silly lets get stupified cupid tried to shoot me with bows and arrows ive got love for my girl tigist without you id slash my wrists you are the reason why love exists even though im faithless i keep on crawling back look at what the cat dragged in tie me down to the railway track working nine to five just to stay alive but its all for free volunteer sucker emcee mission building blocks of life like mechano animals mechanical like orthello and iago cloak and dagger jagged edge jaguar sprouts from the hedge and we all go falling off the edge of the world hello boys and girls toys and ferries poison berries selling poison candy to the girl next door taking rides from strangers you could mop the floor with the corpse of the lone ranger and his trigger happy glass jaw now im wearing my stripes im blaring my pipes at the gates of dawn i get shot by the snipers in my windscreen wipers moving right to left keep it eclectic like wyclef pras and lauryn hill fugees make me chill we be having our fill try to make that dollar bill jesus died on the cross his blood he did spill for you and me to be free so lets get up and lets get ill chill out my soul goes walk about praise the lord who took away my fear and doubt gods love i cant live without spiders climbing up the water spout children of zion all colours like rainbow trouts we take a regular route from misery to happiness toad on the road god bless wish you success im commited to the girl of my dreams tigist tache g woled wanted dead or alive i cant survive without peace love and happiness father son and holy spirit try to take a guess who this is got your hands over my eyes hear the trumpets sound keep it underground all the days of my life get priorities right first comes jesus then my future wife then my friends and family better roll the dice i send you love letters to make you feel better shes my candy girl wrapped up in a sweater good things come in small packages love works like vice versas beautiful girls and boys born from mixed marriages babies in carriages flying out to meet her my secret love for your eyes only crazy for my girl tigist cause noone wants to be lonely keep it real keep on rolling with my homies jesus loves you whether you be friendly or lovely god bless love dan the man aka zombiefleshthemoonfaceone aka the stinky cheese maniac peace out:) smile jesus loves you
¶ 5:51 PM

Thursday, August 12, 2004

dear diary i ate lunch and it tasted delicious we had salad and pasta today i have nothing to say im going to stay away from singles sites cause i dont think i should have to pay money to get a girlfriend that is just sick and wrong and also those kinds of websites mess with my morals too it just makes me feel like a hypocrite i think its like an addiction cause its not really love its just lust its all fake its not real its not something i can feel i dont know what to do with the rest of my day i hope that my troubles will fade away i was wasting my life stuck in a dead end job in the afternoon i will find out what im supposed to do today i got my schedule today im supposed to wash the vans and water the plants and vacuum the vans inside and out and sweep the courtyard to keep it nice and clean today in community intercession we had to pray for sudan i woke up at one am and i walked all the way to the toilet which was not neccessary cause there is a bathroom in my dorm joy is leaving today it is a very sad day i am crying my eyes out i hope that she has a safe trip on the plane i know shes coming back again cause shes going to be here for schoolies week shes coming in november we all had to pray in groups for sudan it is sad when everybody is leaving all at the same time i wish that all my friends never had to go i guess i had better water the pot plants again just to be on the same side i should ask wayne and josh if they have any jobs for me to do chris helped me work out a schedule today im going to miss joy when she goes away i cant spend all day on computer cause im supposed to be working maybe i should wash the vans i have to wait for gary to talk to me about washing the vans apparently half of them are supposed to be washed every week so i have two weeks to get them all washed and cleaned joy is in charge of cleaning the office its cool that she is spending christmas in australia im going to miss her but im happy that she is coming back again and i will probably see her during schoolies week cause she is going to be doing disco school next year and she is doing a degree in child care i gave emily the monsters inc key ring she comes from oregon her dad is european and her mum is chinese japanese she is a beautiful girl with long black hair and pretty clothes she has a pretty face too i like her a lot i think she is a cool girl im going to send her emails once a week she has beach to bush classes every day her jobs are sweeping the dining room area clean and clear and she does an awesome job i hope that she is single cause i want her to be my girlfriend but im going to do the right thing and wait six months before i declare my intentions until then i will just be friends keep this secret to your heart i love emily she is cool she is the coolest girl in school shes been a christian all her life she was home schooled she is gorgeous enough said i love emily i feel happy cause i get to talk to her every day i must not let her suspect anything if i talk to lots of people i can stop myself from falling in love again i will never break her heart as long as she loves me i think im going crazy but maybe im just delirious with happiness its cool that she answers all my questions i love walking and talking with her god bless you emily if you are reading this you are too close have a nice day smile jesus loves you from zombie flesh the moon face one im crazy in love with the girl of my dreams she knows i exist but i think she just wants to be friends emily i love you and i hope you feel the same way too but i dont know what to do im running out of things to say im wasting away all the hours of the day ive got to look for jobs to do before i get in trouble im feeling like the boy in the bubble remember this jesus died and rose again to save our souls from hell death and endless pain we are not food for the worms we are born again we have hope for the future learning how to smile even when it rains pour your misery down on me my frown is upside down im secretly happy god bless love dan the man aka deep think my favourite music artists are tricky and blink 182 live long and prosper all my little homies all around the world god has made you special you were born for a plan and a purpose singles websites are the devil emily looks like an angel
¶ 8:56 PM

dear diary i dont know what to do with my time i think im wasting my days im back on base it feels so good to be back in my hood i waste all my time on the internet looking for relationships im so stupid cause i am surrounded by friends here but i dont know how to talk to girls and the problem with these sites is they charge me money just to send girls emails i guess i should just be friends with girls and then they will want to pursue a relationship with me i dont know what to do today i helped with the mulching and watering the plants im supposed to water the garden on mondays wednesdays and fridays my life is very fulfilling i go to church every week my church is a samoan assemblies of god church once a month we have combines where all the local churches get together and have a party singles sites are not healthy things for me to visit it just messes up my relationships i should treat girls as flesh and blood people not sex objects i must change my thinking patterns i feel like a dirty dog sometimes i feel like im doomed to be single forever i wish i could have a girlfriend its driving me crazy cause im not allowed to have special r elationships with beach to bush girls so what do i do i look for love on the internet and the websites tell me if i want love its going to cost me money well that is just my terrible luck see how much i suck all i want to do is talk to friends in chatrooms but i cant even do that oh well at least i still have my website where i can mumble and grumble under my breath all i want and nobody will care it would be good if somebody else read this website at least it would give me a reason to do this but i am glad i can go here every day and rant and rave as much as i want i wasnt able to use this website when i was at home cause i was only able to use the internet once a week or once a month all my friends are living overseas but some of t hem are coming back the cool thing about being staff is that i can watch as much tv as i want the computers have to go off at ten pm so im going to use the computers until ten pm so i can get as much computer time as humanly possible tomorrow i will find out what jobs i am supposed to do throughout the day i wonder where everyone has gone i bet they are all having fun without me can i blame t hem i am a boring person i spend all my time on computer sending emails to friends i will never see again but maybe i will so i have to live in hope that my friends will come back to australia i dont know what im going to do tomorrow i hope that all my mad friends will come back soon not everybody is going to come back again i have been hiding in this room all day pat came back from bribie island i dont know what the future holds in ten years time or even this time next year i remember before christa and aaron left they had a question and answer session in this room i got a free gift pack full of chocolates and coffee and other assorted goodies i think i had better get off line before my brain gets fried it is not healthy for me to spend all night on computer plus im probably going to have to pay a massive internet bill oh well its cool that the net is free here but i should not exploit that possibility and i must not visit any more singles sites cause if i get caught out i will probably get kicked off base the beach to bush boys and girls are having lectures on intercession tonight i need to go to the toilet i would make this longer but id probably wet my pants god bless love daniel smile jesus loves you ps i am not a hypocrite i just eat my words for breakfast sometimes i wish i was dead until i remember that i have friends who love me back if any of my peeps is reading this all my mad and disco homies i love you until im pushing up daisies you all have a special place in my heart much love from zombie flesh the moon face one
¶ 2:16 AM

Monday, August 09, 2004

dear diary hows it going here i am waiting for thoughts to drip down through the filter in my brain but its not working i have nothing to do and nothing to say today i was helping to do some renovations at youth with a mission the chicken run is being taken out and being made into a bike rack and shade area its going to be totally excellent when its all finished im going to be typing all day long mum and dad are selling lots of books hopefully the schools still have budgets left for this term we had pancakes and maple syrup for lunch chris twin is teaching beach to bush this week there are two people here from germany nandi is back from america and peru and there is a mission builder called emmanuel today mel and jenny are going to decide where im going to sleep cause im moving into mitchelton next week soon i will be living on base again it will be so good not to have to come here by train every morning jordans mum is visiting him i dont know how long all the leaders are staying on base apparently you have to do mission building between schools i am hoping to get into another ywam school next year only next time i will be doing bls not dts its basically the same thing except for more homework and you are a leader not a student ive been to ethiopia and papua new guinea the next place i want to go is malaysia so i can chill out with mary liew again i miss her im going to send her money so she can come to australia she is going to do her bls in new south wales at school of evangelism i am sure mum will let me take cash out the bank if its for a good cause mum has control of my keycard she took it off me for spending too much cash on girls and music and magazines i am no good at saving money it just slips through my fingers every time its cool that i get to watch tv every night but i would be able to do that on base when i am mission building im not sure what the tv rules are round here anymore i did lots of junk shifting today moving bricks and rubbish over to the fence brandon and yoshi are making a brand new fence there is surgical gloves on the mouse pad i dont know why sometimes life is just weird like that some things cannot be explained by human logic these gloves is one of them today i had maple leaf coffee iced tea more maple leaf coffee more iced tea milo and coffee and plenty of water so i think i have had six cups of hot beverages so far today i think that should probably be my limit i hope mum lets me help out mary i know im going to see her again on the gold coast when school of evangelism goes up there to evangelise i am no good at speaking in code to my friends who live in muslim and communist countries there was snowman stickers on the apples today we all ate lots of food i was eating iced buns garlic bread apples and oranges from ten thirty to eleven thirty then i did yardwork for an hour and now im b ack here typing which is what i plan to do for the rest of the day unless i get asked to do something else or i run out of paper work but that is not likely to happen cause there is heaps of information for me to decode and process i am learning a lot from noahs bls notes i hate getting wax stuck in my ear today i found out im supposed to water the garden on mondays wednesdays and fridays so on tuesdays and thursdays i will look for other things to do to occupy my time there is sports on wednesdays it is good to get some exercise every day juan is setting a good example by going for a jog with chris to mac donalds that way they can get some lunch and get some exercise at the same time i eat too much f ood last night i had vegetable soup and scrambled eggs and seaweed crackers aka sa ka ta and cream cheese dip it was totally delicious god bless love daniel see you all tomorrow have a nice day my shiny happy people jesus freaks me out of my comfort zone makes me wake up and smell the coffee have a nice day smile jesus loves you god bless love zombie flesh the moon face one aka ghost who walks aka deep think :)
¶ 8:07 PM

Sunday, August 08, 2004

back again talking about my life and whats been happening on this side of the globe its ok its alright every day and every night my friend prina turned twenty one i got her norah jones new cd called feels like home her brothers did play lots of instrumental jazz rock music in the background it was cool a fun time was had by all i sat next to prinas family accidentally on purpose there was lots of indian food i spoke some words in urdu all the tables had to do plays that represented aspects of prinas life it was a whole lot of fun i did a rap song for prina my hands were shaking so i had to sit down a couple of times i felt like a total nimrod cause i was shaking like a leaf but it didnt stop me trying and everybody clapped at the end i missed church cause i forgot to get off at zilmere and got off at toombul instead so i had to go five stops backwards i talked to a dude who was as drumer for roberta flack and now he is a seventh day adventist who lives on the g old coast and his daughter lives in sydney and then when i got off the train i talked to a dude who goes to a fijian church but he was a white dude like me i g o to a samoan church at zilmere it is assemblies of god it doesnt matter what denomination you come from or the colour of your skin as long as you believe in jesus you are going to heaven when you die thats for sure without a doubt i missed out on getting prayed for today cause i got to work too late cause mum thought they were going to pray for me next week when in actual fact they were going to do it this week instead thats just my rotten luck i watered the garden with my watering can i used the hose for the pot plants and palm trees i wasted a lot of water by letting it trickle into floods all over the foot path aaron and krista are leaving today it is very sad because i love them very much but i know that i will see them again next year or whenever they come back to australia the ekka was heaps of fun i got heaps of show bags i spent all my money i got seven bags for the price of one that was twenty bucks then i got some ceylon tea and the harvey norman bag and then i bought some monsters inc book toys and the journal of antonia montoya which was written by somebody else but i forget t heir name we shopped for books then rachael used the massage chair and bought a beer bundaberg rum as advertised by t he big fat polar bear having a ripe old t ime and we saw lots of quilts hanging around looking pretty i missed out on eating cheese cause i thought this pavillion was all about cars and nothing else but apparently there was heaps of stuff there i g ot loads of lollies and heaps of comics i bought lots of junk and i intended to watch the x men and mall rats but i fell asleep in the middle of x men i suppose lunch is r eady now i can hear the food calling saying eat me so i will obey until next time god bless you all my friends who are reading this remember that angels are watching over you and the earth rotates around the sun the beach to bush people are back and my head is screwed on tight god bless love daniel :0) smile jesus loves you be a clown and turn the world upside down wear a smile not a frown you are special cause you are made in the imasge of god peace be with you boys and girls this is zombie flesh the moon face one losing transmission so its over and out
¶ 7:23 PM

Wednesday, August 04, 2004

dear diary hows it going good to be back again in two weeks time i will be a mission builder officially at the moment i am helping out by watering the pot plants every day and typing up noahs bls notes i am back together with my girlfriend tigist and we are doing good i still dont have any pictures of her but im going to ask my mates to help me out i dont know how long its been since i last made an update but ill try and keep it regular since im coming here every day i still have lots of emails to catch up on but im going to spend most of today typing anyway today t here is a big bbq for all the new recruits at ywam from beach to bush the disco and mad people are not here yet because their schools start next month but some of the staff have already arrived yesterday was sports but i didnt get to go because i went home before sports started and i watched why do fools fall in love i rented out all thirteen halle berry movies as listed www.fetchmemovies.com which gives you free movies for a month then you have to pay and its been frantic stress every night trying to get all these movies watched so i have had no time for poetry or emails or reading and all my library books are overdue but mum has taken them back even though i had them for a week longer i still didnt get fined praise the lord sometimes i still struggle with temptation feels like im fighting a losing battle but god will help me through the tough times and it is good to be surrounded by an international network of christian friends all my brothers and sisters fighting in the army of the lord i dont know if i will be able to pay off all my debts i am signed up to a book club and a music club so i get plenty of books and cds whenever i feel like singing and dancing i dont know if i will do mad disco or beach to bush next year pretty soon it will be time for morning tea i am going to use a different colour every day until ive used them all up someone stuck a picture of a dude with a mullet on the computer i love tigist she is the best girlfriend in the whole world she lives in ethiopia i met her when i was on my first overseas missions trip and we got along like a house on fire even though im a lying cheating dirty dog still she takes me back and she loves me thats what i call grace even though i feel guilty when im faithless still i am never giving up on her cause shes the only girl that ever gave me a chance for romance my peeps are making an archway for the stairs so there is heaps of shade at the top of the steps this week is cool because they have all time greatest simpsons episodes even though none of them are new some episodes are rare i have never seen before heaps of new people recently arrived from america and europe thats where they mostly come from but occasionally we get asian and african students as well yay i go to ywam on the train every day yesterday there was pig races at central shout out to all my international peeps cause i got to go now and get some food much love from deep think aka zombiefleshthemoonfaceone peace be with you smell you later alligator in a while crocodile god bless you love from me :) smile jesus loves you time to get some apples and oranges and bread before all the muffins are gone live long and prosper i miss all my friends who are no longer here with me if anybody is reading this who was on mad or disco please drop me a line sometime life goes on people come and people go we get new friends when the old ones go away but we still stay true to the cause fight the good fight never lose your light and always be guided by heavens helping hands :)
¶ 5:20 PM